The worst thing about all this
panic and anxiety and insanity
is that, well fuck, is that it exists
different dimensions of reality
I live for these moments
for when it passes
and I can breathe again
and think again
and I’m totally not freaking out
and I’m thinking about space
and how with our limited perceptions
we can only understand
what is literally right in front of us
that is all we can perceive
through all of our senses
through emotion
and we’re so limited
in these sacks of skin
with these eyes
and our ears
and our noses always stuck in something
books, gossip, freshly baked cookies
and it comes down to
are you happy?
are you happy blinking away
this time
with your favorite song
and that movie you love
and the people you hug
and the forgiveness you give
yourself
ughhh, and I’m rambling here
but I had an idea
maybe I’ll think it over later
and something good will come of it
but only if its whole
I’m not doing broken bits
and fractured moments anymore
I want the whole picture
its a beautiful mesmerizing thing
and I am only part
and so are you
and we’re part of this whole thing
as the human element
and I think we forgot that somehow
but I want you to remember
like I’m remembering now
and it is good
to be whole.
