ghost

Its that time of night when I’m contemplating life

and the curtains are drawn and the light is glowing

softly in the corner

and I’ve got violins in my ears playing the soundtrack

to the movie I have playing in my head

as I feel the euphoria of another day lived

and the few hours I got to spend dreaming about you

and I’ve got my hands dancing stretched above my head

and I’m praising the beauty of your face

and the angle with which my gaze traced your smile

as I hid around the corner and dreamt about forever

and I can’t tell you of the joy that beats through my heart

and the surprise I feel when it jumps and starts

when I imagine we’re finally happy

and my blood is screaming through my veins

and there’s a stupid smile on my face

thinking about the way a fire sprang to life

as I passed you by, almost touching

it left a trail, a shadow of the ghost of the moment

when we almost did but didn’t

and the cymbal crashes through my head

when I remember I can’t tell you

or dance for you

I can’t smile and laugh and it can’t be for you

even if its all I ever want

and now the sick yellow light of the lamp

is peeling along the walls

staining the memory of day

and I’m happy I can love you in this way

even when we’ll not be forever

or ever

or now

god, and the sounds of the violins are climbing higher

and the movie is coming to its tragic end

and life is not a dream

its something else entirely

and I’ll be crying a river of woe

in the morning

remembering to forget the happy hour

until I’m dreaming of forever

 

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Miss Me?

I miss you

In the dark

and I imagine

you’re somewhere

lying in your mountains

Breathing in the magic

and swallowing the stars

and I wonder

sometimes upon occasion if

you miss me too?

I wonder if it drives you crazy

and you want fly across the night sky

to find me, once and for all?

and how would my eyes fare

in the blinding light of day

to find you had come all this way?

Dazzling kaleidoscopes of you

broken fragments of a million fantasies,

I think I’d hold my breath as you tied me up

and dragged me through

all this space that’s clouded up

what’s between my heart and you.

I’d wait just a second more,

just until my galaxy crashed into yours.

I think your gravity would spin me dizzy

until I’m not sure of anything anymore.

My cheek pressed against your chest

and floating gently on the river of time.

I’m hoping you miss me too and dream of me in ecstasy.

 

Romance of beast and madness

Magic passed along the leaves of the trees

a rustling exhale of emotion

racing wildly with the breeze

And I was caught up with a laugh

while the lightning sizzled through my veins

and as I ran along the property line

I stuttered on a hiccup as I watched

the man was you and he stepped through

a wildfire’s intense and raging flame.

My feet grew roots and my eyes became heavy

intoxicated and seduced, I was bewitched

as you tucked your horns into your hat,

and hid your tail under long lengths of coat.

And as the wind fell silent and the trees forgot their madness,

the flames blinked out and you turned in polished shoes

that gleamed a stepping cadence as you sauntered,

finding me trapped and buried up to my neck in fearsome fright.

A deer struck by headlights, stationary and entranced,

synapses follows the path of memory

and life is flashing like a dying bulb.

And as I feel the passage of time,

my feet unwind and the earth rises up,

a gentle push and a desperate plea for me to flee.

And I gather in my breath and pray for wings,

swift getaway.  A chase in the dark and your laughter is following me.

Reaching out it grabs my heart,

this dark and twisted sound.

I’m slowing down, sluggish,

breath too heavy, but I can’t stop.

Straining forward my ears are searching the dark,

locating your footfalls. And I need to turn right about here,

turn right, but my feet are wrong,

and I turn into your arms.

Why?  and I’m staring into your eyes burning and turning into ash,

a perfect form with the slightest touch and I’m easily destroyed.

Your hands are so hot as they reach out and stroke my cheek,

changing me and turning me and now I’m perfectly molded.

Something made for only you.

I surrender my will with your kiss, a gentle flick of your flame.

And I’ve no one and nothing to blame,

this romance between beast and madness.

and I’m a willing captive, caged inside this forge,

desire and heat are all that I am,

because of you and your hell that stirs my soul.

I’ll never be cold again.

 

 

Life and Death

The girl in black swayed in the wind as she stood atop the hill.  She always went to the highest point, where she could gaze down on the world.  Errant noises of city life would drift up to her, and she would sigh in frustration.

Today was no different.  Just another day atop the highest hill above the crowded screaming city.  Having felt frustrated and out of sorts, the girl in black took the hike and clambered to the top.  But today, she lay down in the green grass.

Spreading her arms out to her sides she let the sun place warm kisses upon her cheeks.  Trailing her palms lightly over the blades of grass, she realized how sensitive she was.  The tickling spread across her skin and stretched inside her body.

Soon the girl in black who stretched and sighed upon the grass atop the hill above the city forgot about her frustrations and her woes.  She took off her top and lay on the grass, to feel it scratching and poking and teasing the skin of her back.

She writhed and stretched and gloried in the feelings of her nerve ending waking up, and she laughed as her skirt bunched up around her hips and the grass began to tickle her thighs and calves.

And somewhere hidden atop this hill beyond the loud uncaring city sat a man, who was dark and brooding with long lashes and lips of sin.  He sat with a pen he used to scratch words onto a lone and windblown sheet of paper.  Agonizing over each syllable that bled from the pen.

Slowly, he became distracted from his dark and sullen thoughts.  As each word became farther and distant from his mind, his focus shifted to the sound of low and throaty laughter.  Something bothered him about this noise.  Something that made him stand and turn.  Something that told him he must investigate its source.

Weaving and swaying in the wind, he wound his way through the boulders and the trees to find a sight most beguiling to his astonished eyes.  There before him, close to the edge of a sheer cliff lay a girl half clad in black, exultantly alive and playing in the grass.

As the dark and brooding man hid himself as best he could behind a half dead tree, he watched as the girl slowly faded from joyful laughter to something slower and more intense as she rolled from her back to her stomach.

He watched in fascination as the girl still stretched and rubbed herself upon the grass.  Watched as she pushed herself up, just enough so only her nipples were caressed and teased by the green fingers of grass.  He watched as her face became bewildered and indecision furrowed her brow.

Pausing for a moment, the girl in black pondered what was happening to her body and how much tension she fought to let go.  Gently laying back down on to her stomach the girl breathed in the rich aroma of the earth.  Felt the grass abrade her fine skin the stretched taut across her stomach and rubbed her thighs to catch every fleeting scratch and tear.

The man who failed with words upon finding such a vision, prayed to whoever would listen that the girl in black would make the best decision and pull herself together and go.  But somewhere not so far and not so deep inside he wished she would continue.  Watching this resplendent creature writhe upon the earth in such shameless glory gave his blood new fire.

And so a moment crept by as she made her choice and he sent his prayers and made his wishes.  He watched as she pushed herself up slightly once more, just to brush her nipples through the grass.  And he watched as she bit her lip and closed her eyes, and listened for the soft sighs and crept a bit closer, dazed and confused as she reached down to pull her skirt a little higher.

Kneeling down the man began to crawl, slow and steady did he watch this girl as her fingers began to glide along the sensitive skin of her inner thigh and her breasts swaying back and forth across the green grass.

Rolling to her side to face the sun, the girl in black gave into her basic needs.  Her ardor for life and living and all things good and pure took her to this place.  With her hand between her thighs and her skin bathed in the pleasures of the earth, she set a slow and steady pace.  While the man crept forward like a shadow, mesmerized.

Unable to stop his fingers from reaching out to take, his fingertips found warm and soft skin.  Trailing a path of fiery lust from ankle to knee, the man began again.  And traced a second path upon the bare and vulnerable skin from inner calf to inner thigh with nothing but his wet and thirsty tongue.

And the girl in black lay back with her breasts pressed into the grass and raised her hips in wanton fashion.  There were shadows trailing kisses along her body and she was too delighted with the new sensations to even care.  All she knew were the building waves that would soon be pummeling her back into the earth.  All she lived for was the moment she broke into a million different parts and stole the sunshine from the sky.

And as the man who was dark and brooding was filled with fire, his hands began to shift and shape and mold the girl in black.  She turned and stretched and writhed beneath his touch, until she was on her back and his lips were on her breasts and his hands between her thighs, petting and palming and caressing and kneading.

And on his knees he pushed and sank until he was buried inside the body that gave such life and light.  While his lips sipped and drank what her body had to offer, she took his fire and his power and somehow gave him new words to study and ponder.

And as the sun began to fall behind the shadow of the earth, she opened her eyes to see the dark and brooding man.  His eyes were yellowed like an old and weathered page of a book, and hidden inside was a demon possessed with finding life again.

Finally as the stars began to break across the sky, the girl in black and the dark and brooding man Came together with one last thrust, crying out their cosmic bliss, so loud and long the city below became silent just to listen.  Hearts beat heavy and bloods ran hot and soon the city was ablaze with red hot lust.

And the brooding man held the girl in black as the constellations burned the night sky.  Tracing new words into her skin with fingertips and lips and lashes and tongue.  Every word a brand into the skin that felt the life the earth held within.

Death had come to work a spell.  Life had come and given a miracle.  Life and Death lie entwined somewhere on a grassy hill between heaven and hell.