When I saw him standing there

heart flip flops and tiny deaths

who could breathe at time like this?

New dimension and reality restructures

suddenly the universe expands

Standing on the concrete floor

I’ve won the lottery glittery shiny costume jewelry

and I’m sparkling under his gaze.

No hurries as I’m finally home.

Time and time stands still.

Who needs to breathe at a time like this?

I’ve waited a million years

since you let me go in that other lifetime

your stardust leaving me; plain and dull and gray

and I remembered how you were ever mine

since before the beginning caught up in the ache

the passing of time, the forever of when you weren’t.

I’m dying to breathe at a time like this.

You stand there, my universe

just staring me down as time slogs on

daring me to move proof I live for you

Start this orbit, a slow course of revolution

spinning and tripping through space

I breathe at a time like this

just in time.





I dreamed a little dream

I came to sing to you a pretty rhyme

a lilting melody that made me think of you

and we were standing in the place

of heavy sinking stones

You kissed me like you owned me

slid your chains right through my bones

and you placed me in the room

where the ceiling was falling fast

each moment without you the air dry and flaky

I escaped to be beside you

and you smiled and kissed me

and your eyes told me I should run

but there I stayed

The chains you jerked they scraped and broke

what was inside of me as you dragged me through the dark

to tie me up and bind me

scrape and scratch and brand me

and there I reveled in the pain

and I bit my lips as I moaned and I screamed and your pleasure grew

and this darkness spread

and in the distance in another crumbling room

another voice was moaning and crooning and singing songs

that weaved the spells I fell under as you licked and bit and pulled

and somewhere I found there was no light left

as your dry and cracked lips captured mine

and with every thrust and grunt and scream and tear

my life’s blood fell upon your altar

The place I longed to stay and worship

but I laid my bloody body bare

and offered you my pleasure as I took it

when you ate my heart

my last breath a scream as you used the chains to draw me up

and used your claws to slice me up and you owned me

mind body and soul

and the bodies were writhing in ecstasy with your powerful roar

and you ripped me limb from limb

and there it was

a tiny piece of heaven

as you threw me bloody and broken

to the dirty floor

in the place of sinking stones

the place you claimed me

and owned me with your lips.

I could have run and I should have run,

I should have lived to see another day

and instead I stayed and succumbed to the pleasure and the pain

and they all watched as you made my blood rain

and my screams were lightning bolts as your laughter and your groans

were the thunder and the wind.

I died and you were still inside.

I died and you were still inside.






Timeless and classic

A dream

a world that is not my own

and with every word


And there’s a haunting melody

it plays over and over

a memory I never had

and I’m sad

this story

It’s not my own

And I can feel it

in my bones

this is life

A love I was meant to have

and its fiction

but my heart screams

that its true

And its not my own

This midnight fantasy

This decrepit old and drafty house

All my ghosts are waiting

And I pass through room after room

There you are

Happy lips

and this is my own

my memory

Infected dreams talk to me

and I drown under this terrible song

wrapped up in spider webs

my eyes shut tight

The ghost of me

Dances and vanishes from sight

And I turn the page

the story and the love

not my own

Escape the dying echoes

a kiss dismissed

tragedy trailing

while your song is ending.


Dreaming Red

I left the window open last night as I slept

I hoped you’d come and slip inside my dream

To the place where we first met

It began with a shifting color scheme


I found you there inside my mind

Commanding a storm of violent reds

Convinced I would only find

nothing but broken threads


I stepped through a broken glass

and the red swallowed the blood

Your first words said I shall pass

Inside my heart began to flood


I shivered with demonic heat

You ran through me with vengeance

The pain was an intense treat

Your violence a welcome cadence


Tonight I wait and I dream

I breathe and I cry

Your leaving is a theme

In your absence I die.






I just wanted to hold your hand through infinity

and follow the fireflies into the night

I wanted to waltz with you across the galaxies

and memorize the lyrics to the universe

and whisper poetry back

I wanted you to hold me when I woke up

and welcome my dreams into the world

I wanted you to hold them in your heart

and when we kissed all the mysteries would unravel

I wanted all the answers you held secret

and when you smiled at me I felt heaven

I just wanted this.