Devoted

Is it devotion?

fear of failure?

am I somewhere

stuck in between?

I’m a limbo bimbo.

It’s a shame.

Take another step,

and they’re all the same.

Right turn, right turn

Right turn into a circle.

Perfect 360

degrees of nonsense.

I’m devoted to this insanity,

caught up quick.

I close my eyes

as I toe the lines

and blur the truth

with what I fantasize.

And I’m so devoted,

to this dream I once had.

And reality is a loser

in any case.

In this case,

I’m a lonely defeated,

devoted devotion whore

and I’m devoted

like never before

to this sadness and this pain

and this ache.

I’m devoted to this hell,

and this memory,

and this dying wish

pressed against my lip.

I can’t escape this,

to want what I give.

My devotion is dissonance,

there is no harmony,

and I wobble weak-knee’d

searching for balance.

I see with my two eyes

and clarity is sharp

within my mind,

but my heart and her

devotion, she skips a beat

skips a lot and traps me here.

I’m trapped and I’m free

and I can see but my heart is blind

and stupid and dumb.

And I’m devoted to her restless rustle

within my breast and I listen with half an ear,

and I cut out my tongue.

I’m afraid of what I’ve become.

Wrapped up in pretty bow-ties

and slashed with pretty ribbons

and I kneel where I should stand.

I’m a mess and I’m devoted

to this fear.

Heart wrapped up in stitches

and a brain full of holes.

Moth eaten memories

of a dream once bold.

To this devotion that I give

and be given in return?

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Author: doing2016

I started writing when I was very young. Then I was mortified on a bus full of people when one of my stories was read aloud. I lost my focus and quit. Now, I'm trying to find my voice and my ambition. I love to write, good or bad. So, I'm doing it here and now. Thank you.

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