My other half and myself were having a discussion the other morning as I brought him home and away from work.
What is the last song you want to hear before you go deaf?
I couldn’t think of it, not right then. And I’ve been thinking and listening to all the songs I love.
Not only do I love, but I obsess and I crave the feelings invoked inside, and how some songs can time travel with you.
To places and time that stand still and are branded deep inside and somehow transform you into the human you’re going to be.
You never know what bit of magic you get to keep. You never know where it’s going to come from, and sometimes, you forget you ever had it.
This song, to me is perfect in every single way. The strings, the lyrics, the melody. Every thing about it takes me back to when I was just a girl beginning to dream.
I can remember sunshine and lying in the dead brown grass in summer. Dreaming and wishing for escape. I needed a way out of my life. And so I built dreams of castles and knights and love. Adventures where love always wins the day.
I needed to believe after all the hell I had lived, that somewhere I belonged and someplace I was meant to be. I needed to believe in love without conditions and jealousy and constant neglect.
I needed to believe in me.
And somewhere inside there is this song and its always there. In all my dreams and fantasies.
Weirdly, this is the last song I would ever wish to hear. Every note, and every word. Fade out slowly as my hearing goes. This song makes me heavy in the center and light everywhere else.
The little girl inside of me who will never grow up, she still dreams. I hope she never stops.