Remember when you were there so far away? And I was there just dreaming of you? How many stars were wished upon? How many hours were spent in thoughts of you?
Every night I’d place a kiss and a wish inside a paper plane and throw it wide into the space and time that separated me from you.
Every day I’d smile and converse, strangling the words of loneliness trying to slip past my lips.
Every moment a wish in time. This need. This ache. This devotion.
And here we are. In the nights, making wishes come true. Pouring ancient and primordial ecstasies back in to the universe.
Creating new cosmic masterpieces of song and joy. Stretching out and folding back in. Encircling this space and time with the melody of you and me.
I saw you, standing out past the horizon
Where forever turned into infinity
Bigger than all the life I knew
Taking steps away from this platform
Intent and desire the same breathing fire
With every step away from there
The distance remained the same
I reached the point I thought you were
At that start of forever
I stepped into this great abyss
this chasm that never ended
and always there in front of me
I walked until forever
I stumbled through a galaxy
named a star for you
Pushed forward through the dust that hides
and shields your light from view.
And every time I thought we touched
there you were, standing at the start
This intergalactic race that has no end
this fire in my heart.
When the crazy is trying to lurk back
like a teenage kid past curfew
and I’m standing there
arms folded across my chest
toe tapping on the floor
and I make eye contact
Childhood reality. Lemonade stands. Video games.
Dirt. Sunshine. Dizzy with life.
Laughter. More sunshine.
Rainy days. Locked inside. Can’t come out and play.
Snowy days are packed inside and nowhere left to hide.
I found a book and found a world.
Childhood days are left behind.
You can always tell when the weather starts changing.
It always sounds the same.
Cars go faster.
I can hear them racing for miles
blood gets to boiling.
I love these little breaks. soon it will be cold again.
Snow will cover the roads.
People will drive slower.
Somehow, the noise becomes muted.
But for tonight, Heart’s are racing
and there’s desire burning and chasing them through the streets.
Passions are roaring and shifting gears
hellbent on living.
Its difficult to walk that straight line
Even more difficult to blend in
She can’t meet your eyes
She’s always looking in
She’s tired of fighting
She’s tired of pretending
She wants to crawl in bed
she doesn’t know how to be like you
You live in that bright world of comfort
while she lives in that dark cave of her mind
Somewhere she’s comfortable
Somewhere she’s wanted
Somewhere full of discontent and demons
She wants to hold your hand
even if she can’t feel it or see it when you have taken hold
guiding her through this unfamiliar maze
she loves you more for it
she loves that you try
she will try too
She can’t fail
she can’t die when she looks in your eyes
She loves you and you are worth the fear.